I love these cords, they make me smile for a very, very important reason. The minute I see them I’m reminded of the day I bought them and how amazingly at was. You see I bought these Levi jeans from a second hand stall in a market in the south of France with my lovely friend Ann.
The day was warm and sunny and I was just drawn to the cheerful colour of these cords. They were a size 30×32 button fly low rise and I just thought I’d have no chance of getting into them. Remember I used to carry a LOT of weight and only that year had gone down from a UK size 20 (USA 16) to a 12-14 and I still couldn’t ‘see’ myself in thinner clothes. Well Ann was encouraging me to go for it and the guy on the stall (charmingly French of course) said I should try them on. So there I was in this tiny makeshift curtained cubicle in the middle of a bustling French market pulling on these cords – easily. Yes, easily. I wasn’t wriggling around, sweating, swearing and getting in a stew, they slipped on a treat.
I fairly strutted out to show Ann and a purchase was made. I always think of this as one of those Great Big Happy Moments.
I’ve worn these cords so many times and they always make me feel GREAT. So it was with something akin to despair that I realised by the end of last year that they were now way, way, way too small for me. In fact the button is a good 4″ from the button hole, ladies, these guys just ain’t going round my body. Of course I had tried them a couple of times last year and gone from uncomfortable muffin top to this all out no-go situation. It was a slippery slope.
Keen readers will know that 2012 was a shit year for me and all and all not one I care to remember. I know I have piled on the weight due to a variety of reasons, but seeing my beloved pink cords as a Thing Of The Past was just too much to bear.
On 1st January when I went on my 2 week detox (lasted 12 days so come on not too shabby) I decided that my goal would be to get into my cords by 1st March. I wrote a Post-It to this effect, stuck in on the jeans and hung them on the wardrobe door so that I see them every day.
Now have i lost all the weight? Am I slithering into those jeans with ease yet? Remember there are only 2 weeks to go till 1st March. Well sorry to say folks I am nowhere near my jean fitting goal. The bad start to the year and foot op have put paid to my Get Fit And Go For It plans. But you know what, for the first time in my life I am not beating myself up about a weight issue. I have taken a tentative grasp at the reality nettle and realised that what I was hoping for was maybe a just a tad unrealistic under the circumstances. So i have written a new Post-It note and put 1st May on it. I’m giving myself a fighting chance.
Just seeing those jeans makes me smile. I don’t look at them in panic thinking I haven’t managed to lose the weight and failed again. I look at those pink cords and I see Ann and I in France. I see us laughing and high fiving that I got into them and bought them. These are my Happy Jeans and I just know I’ll get back into them when the time is right.
Do you have a fav item of clothing that really makes you smile and bring back memories?
Have a great weekend.