“You’ll know when it’s time to say goodbye, you’ll know it in your heart”. The words of David my friend and vet have hung in the air for six weeks now. I worried that I wouldn’t know, that I would hang on to my little friend and cause her to suffer, I worried that I would say goodbye too soon.
Yesterday I knew.
For the first time she didn’t try to eat. She looked at the food and sighed.
There was no tempting her with treats.
She was telling me in her own way that she had had enough.
My heart went out to her and David was right, I just knew it was time.
A cozy afternoon by the fire so Idgy could say goodbye when she got home from school. Then the dreadful journey to finally say goodbye. A journey at once too fast and also too slow. Time slipping away. Precious moments. Make the drive last forever so I don’t have to say goodbye. Make it soon so my heart can stand the pain.
Hugs, kisses, words whispered into soft and comforting fur. Love, love as I look into her eyes one last time and hold her as she fades from life.
Darling Baby, you were the most beautiful cat I had ever seen.
You were a joy and treasure to have.
You were a gift from God.
You were peace and tranquility, always calm always the lady.
Never a hiss and never a scratch.
You came to us as a rescue cat from an old lady who had to move and couldn’t take you with her.
You had been a show cat and came with a bag full of Championship rosettes.
Proof of a beauty that needed to ribbons.
You stole our hearts with your joyfull and quiet nature.
You were love and comfort, fun and friendship.
You know in your heart when it’s time to say goodbye.
I will miss you forever and love you just as long.