Today is the final day, the day of saying goodbye. You have been so very kind and been with me all the way, I wanted to share with you the words I will be saying at 11am this morning at Mum’s funeral.
I could stand here and read poems about clocks stopping and Mum being ‘just in another room’, but I won’t, instead I shall use my own words.
I like to remember Helen Gorrie, my Mum, our Mum, as wearing her crew neck jersey, good tweed skirt and the gold necklace my Dad gave her so many years ago – she took pride in her appearance and always looked beautiful.
My Mum love life;
She loved marzapan,
dark bitter chocolate,
Count Down on TV,
My Dad especially,
Her grand daughter Idgy most of all.
Oh and she loved daisies, she loved their simplicity and unfussiness, they were her kind of flowers.
She loved all of these things and more, though maybe not in that order.
About thirteen years ago while on holiday in Spain with Mum and Dad an American lady was chatting to me. She said “You know something honey, your Mum is an angel”, I didn’t get it so she explained. She said “Your Dad is in a wheelchair and he is a bit difficult, you are stressed out and a bit of a brat and you have a toddler in tow. Your Mum is juggling all this and keeping a smile for everyone and trying her best to enjoy her holiday. I call that being an angel”.
This didn’t really resonate with me until after Dad died a few years ago and I realised that the angel in question really needed to be needed. That was her job in life. She had looked after my Dad since she was twenty years old and it broke her heart when he died. She slowly started to go downhill health wise.
She hasn’t been like Mum for almost two years now, not her former vital and sometimes fiesty self, but she has still been there and still cared for her little family.
Whenever I told her I loved her she always said the same words “love you back”.
I will always remember my Mum as an angel in a smart jersey and a good tweed skirt. I shall never think of her as being ‘just in another room’, she is right here in my heart forever.
Love you back Mum, always will.