Birthdays – Idgy and I make a fuss over birthdays, but my own family didn't really push the proverbial boat out when it was your "special" day. I don't want that for my daughter, I want her to know that her day is so special it is just for her.
Anyway, today is Colin's birthday. For the past couple of years it has been a card-in-the-post sort of affaire. In fact for two years after my Dad died we never spoke to eachother at all. A stupid thing really, stressy situation, family crisis, the big Death word. It threw things out of proportion and things were said and tempers flew.
For two years I never saw him or spoke to him. Then a few years ago when the shit hit the fan with my separation etc, we just met and talked. We got back together like peas in a pod. Conversation could almost have been picked up from years before. Time had passed, time had healed.
I so, so regret those lost years now. Don't ever let anyone (or yourself) tell you to "don't bother with that today, do it tomorrow" especially when it comes to people. Will they be there when you decide the time is right to mend bridges? Maybe they won't, we never know what is ahead.
Anyway this year is different. Idgy is off for a sleep over party at a pal's today and I shall be off to Musselburgh. I have packed the prezzies, the cards (fab handmade one from Idgy, one in dubious humour from me), the lunch (a picnic), the wine and of course the cake. We'll go out to the pub later, probably drink far too much and I will come home tomorrow morning with a horrible hangover. This year colin will celebrate, whether he likes it or not!
I'm not going to miss out on a minute of this special day.