Good morning out there in the land of non-dieting, getting fit and healthy eating.
Oh it is never as easy as it is cracked up to be is it? I was doing fine last week, was really pleased with how I had cleared the house of fatty fodder, filled the fridge with fresh and healthy and got out there running every day last week. Ah going too well really wasn't it. I always allow myself some wine at the weekend and I am even allowing just a little of my beloved French bread.
Well I was fine on Saturday, all in moderation. Idgy was away with her Dad and I was on my own and doing well. Not so on Sunday.Went to visit Mum who is fading before our eyes. No longer the person I knew so very well and loved, no longer the scourge of 'Countdown' with a keen interest in all things sporty and someone who never missed the News. She doesn't watch TV anymore, doesn't read, has nothing to pass her time. By some cruel trick of the decorator, there is a huge clock fastened to the wall in her room, right in front of her bed. What hell to see every minute tick by when you are doing nothing at all. What along,long day that must make.
Anyway as ever the visit was a bit of a strain. My heart lurches from a despirate urge to 'make thinges right', a longing to gather Mum up in my arms and take her away, away from what is happening. As ever the visit is short, they are getting shorter as Mum is always tired and wants to sleep.
I leave upset, I drive home feeling crushed, now guess where I ended up. Yep, the fridge was my friend on Sunday night. Hands up, I admit it. It may have been filled with nice healthy food, but let me tell you, by Monday morning it was almost empty.
The huge pot of yummy cabbage soup that was meant to last a few days, hhhhmmmmmm didn't last long. Oh, and I found a whole loaf of French bread in the freezer.
I raided Idgy's crisp stash too. I lay on the sofa and stuffed my face, I am not proud of myself.
I have to look on it as a 'slip up' and get back on the health kick. Monday morning found me running again and eating 'normally' I am trying to not get hung up on this, must move on. Just felt I had to come clean and admit it to you here.
We are all human, we all fall off the proverbial wagon for one reason or another.